Quick Catch up + Video

March 27, 2014



So recently, my life has been super jam packed– hence why I haven't had the chance to sit down and make a beauty or lookbook video. Lately if I haven't been focused on schoolwork, then it was procrastinating said schoolwork. Then recently, when I tried to film a video for this week, I became a bit ill. I was having some severe migraines and stomach aches, I couldn't bare it. So, I decided to just upload a short and sweet video that I filmed earlier last week that I never actually planned on uploading at all. It was a video of me talking to the camera, showing off the most random things in my apartment, and basically procrastinating because I was having the most amazing day. 



The reason I was having such an amazing day was because I found out that I will get to live in London the month of June and get to study theatre at a university whilst there. I am unbelievably excited that I get to have this opportunity. Not only will I be living there, but I plan to also take time to explore places like Paris, Scotland, Ireland, and maybe even Amsterdam. I have always dreamed about living in a place like London, and granted it's only for a month, but that's all the time I need. I am so blessed that I have this opportunity and that I get to share it with you guys as well. I plan on doing a lot of travel blog posts, along with some vlogs too. I really can't wait to see where this experience takes me. 

Also, I shared with you guys that I had the chance to meet RJ Mitte from Breaking Bad last week. Later on last week, I had also the chance to see Jay Pharoah's stand up act live. For those of you that don't know who Jay Pharoah is, he is a comedian and impressionist on Saturday Night Live. He was absolutely amazing. I have not laughed so hard in a really long time. I was constantly smiling so hard during his entire show that my cheeks started to hurt. He made countless impressions, had the entire audience sing the Fresh Prince of Bel Air theme song, so many Kanye, Drake, and white girl jokes. He even did one of his own raps for us. I'm shocked that he doesn't get more air time on SNL because he deserves it. I highly suggest that if you ever have a chance to go to one of his live shows, DO IT! It was so worth the money and the best way to spend my night. 

Top: H&M


Next month, I plan to make a lot more beauty and fashion videos. I hope I can do another spring like lookbook– hopefully it's warmer by then. I really want to do a video about how I do my brows, my night time skin routine, and definitely a March favorites video! I look forward to seeing you all on my channel

xo,
embur. 

I Met RJ Mitte!

March 20, 2014


Last night, I had the unbelievable chance to meet the famous, RJ Mitte. He came to my university to give a speech on overcoming adversity, like his cerebral palsy. 

For those of you that don't know who RJ Mitte is, he is known for his supporting role on the hit television show Breaking Bad starring Bryan Cranston. On the show, RJ played Bryan Cranston's son, Walter White JR, or as he liked to have been called, Flynn. Breaking Bad was an American television show on AMC about a high school chemistry teacher (Cranston) that has been diagnosed with stage 3 lung cancer, and turns to making and selling meth to support his family and pay for chemotherapy. 

Last night I got to listen to him give a speech about overcoming adversity. He first talked about he dealt with cerebral palsy growing up, and how he got to where he is now with it. He mentioned that everybody has there own disability; whether it's physical, mental, or just something personal that they have to overcome, and no one should hold that against them. Typically people seem to think that someone with a medical disorder like cerebral palsy, autism, or any medical disability like that should just stay at home and play XBOX all day, and not have the opportunity to go out and explore the world. He said that shouldn't be the case. They deserve to get to go out and live their life, and everyone is capable of that no matter what. There is nothing that I couldn't agree more with. The more he talked about what he did to get to where he is now was inspirational. He never let anyone tell him he couldn't chase his dreams. The amount of perseverance that he had growing up, not only to just not let cerebral palsy define who is, but to become an actor with cerebral palsy and beat the odds. 

Listening to his story, I like to say it kind of reflected back on my life as well. Now I've never had any kind of disorder like that, but I do constantly struggled with severe anxiety and ADHD. I have had several people before say that my panic attacks are a cry for attention and ADHD isn't a "real disorder". I don't think anybody can say that until they walk in my shoes. It doesn't matter if someone else has ADHD and anxiety as well, they will never know what I personally go through, and I the same with them. Which is one thing that he mentioned in his speech last night. You never know what someone else is going through and what there life is like, so for someone to go out and target you and go against you for your own disability is wrong on so many levels. 

After he gave his speech, we got to have Q&A with him. Half of the questions were about Breaking Bad, the others were mainly about cerebral palsy. For those of you that are wondering what his favorite breakfast food is, it's bacon. Someone even asked him how many times has he seen Bryan Cranston in his underwear. 

After his Q&A, we got to have a meet and greet with him. He was so nice and willing to talk to everybody. Of course by the time I got up there, I had no idea what I was going to say. All I did was simply tell him everything he said was so inspirational. I told him how I have to deal with my anxiety and acting, and how I have to push myself to not to care what people think of my performance otherwise I become a nervous wreck. He told me that it does take time to build up walls, it took him a while too. The public constantly wants a reaction out of you, so they will constantly see if they can push you until you do retaliate. He gave me a hug and told me not to let anyone tell me I can't do what I want my life because it's my life. 

After I met him, of course my friend Mariah went right after me and got down on her knee to propose. It was the best thing ever. I told her that if it was Aaron Paul, I would have done the exact same thing, even though his wife is flawless. I actually don't know what I would have done if it was Aaron Paul. They probably would have had to call an ambulance for me. But I was so happy after I met RJ. He wished us a goodnight and we told him to have an A-1 day. He probably hates us now. 

RJ is doing a tour right now and coming to a lot of different universities, so if he came to your school and you got meet him, let me know in the comments below!

xo, 
embur.

Sweater: H&M
Undertank: Gap
Jeans: BDG
Booties: Sam & Libby

Love Your Selfie

March 18, 2014

The video I posted this week on my YouTube channel is a project that I have been thinking about a lot lately. It's a subject that is close to my heart and I really want to share it with you guys. 



I think it's really important for girls of all ages, they don't necessarily have to be in their teens or preteens, even twentysomethings and older women need to be told that they are beautiful, because they truly are. The pressure that society puts on girls to look a certain way is ridiculous. We're told that we must look like the girls in the magazines, when really the girls in the magazines don't even look like that.  I believe that girls today need to be taught how to have confidence and a higher self-esteem. I was a victim of all this pressure myself. I was bullied growing up for my looks. I didn't fit in. I had braces, frizzy hair, and not wearing makeup to cover up my dark circles didn't help. It really put down my self-esteem. I grew up thinking that I was this hideous person, when in reality I wasn't. But bullying is another topic for another time. Anyways, as I got older, I slowly (and I mean very slowly) started gaining a bit more confidence and higher self-esteem in myself. Yes, there are still things that I don't like about myself and wish I could change. I think even the most confident people are still like that. But, I still hold a great confidence in me. I refuse to let anyone tell me that I am not beautiful. No matter what they say, that still doesn't change what I think of myself. There may be ten thousand other girls that are way prettier than me, I know for a fact there are, but that still doesn't change what I think of myself. That shouldn't change what anybody thinks of themselves. 

Confidence is true beauty. If you don't have confidence, then no one is every going to get the chance to really see how beautiful you are. You hear guys say all the time that confidence is sexy and that's because it is! For once, guys are actually right about something. Jokes. However, in all honesty, it is true though. If you don't believe in yourself, and if you don't love yourself, then how can anyone else?  I know I make it sound so easy, but it's not. Like I said, it wasn't until recently that I truly started believing in myself. It takes time. There are still things today that I don't like about myself. For example, I wish I had more muscle in my abs, I wish my nose was a bit smaller, I even wish I had bigger boobs (but I think almost every girl wishes for that). Two of those I could change if I wanted to and had the money, but instead, I've saved money and just accepted it. I used to hate my freckles and would want to cake on makeup to cover them up. I would go to class with so much foundation and powder on. Now, I love them! When I go to class, all you'll see me wear is some concealer, eyeliner, and mascara. Sometimes I don't even wear any at all, because I love my skin. If someone doesn't like my natural look, oh well, I wasn't trying to impress them anyways. Granted, I was lucky to never have an acne problem. I never had acne growing up or now. Yes, like every human being, I get one or two spots on my face when I am stressed, but that's about it. Other than that, I work really hard to keep my skin clean. I follow a rigorous skin routine every morning and night. I even have a pamper night once a week where I really just go to town on cleaning my skin. I care about my skin and constantly want what's best for it.

I'm not shunning makeup or saying that you should just take care of skin and that will fix all your problems. I know that it's not that easy for some people. I know that clear skin doesn't fix everyones problems. I know that people who even have the clearest skin don't think that they are beautiful, but that's not true. Instead of hiding the light inside of you that's dying to shine, let it out and shine even a little brighter. But whether you accept the way you look and choose not to wear makeup, or simply just wear makeup, just make sure that confidence is the foundation to your look. Accept that you will never look like that girl in the magazine. Embrace how you look. Remember that makeup should only be to enhance your natural features. Any look can be beautiful with a smile. And always shine brighter.

I hope you guys like my video, please feel free to give it a thumbs up if you want to see more stuff like it, or even more posts like this one. Also, subscribe for future videos while you are there. I really hope you guys are excited for new videos in a series like it.

xo, embur.

#PROCRASTINATIONNATION

March 13, 2014

One of the the things that I love to do is procrastinate. It's such a terrible habit, but there are sometimes you just can't help it. Recently when I was browsing YouTube, I found a couple of videos that are pretty freaking fantabulous and I thought I could share them here for my fellow procrastinators.

Beyonce "Drunk In Love" Performed by Emojis:

Procrastination In a Nutshell: (which is basically me now)


I hope you guys like these videos and they inspire some procrastination in you today... or maybe tomorrow. 

xo,
embur.

TMI Tag!

March 11, 2014

Hey there guys!

So I recently did the TMI Tag on my YouTube channel. For those of you that don't know what the TMI Tag is, it's a list of 50 personal questions that may just take everything a little too far. I felt like my subscribers don't know a lot about me, so I thought this would be great way to get to me... maybe even too much.



Please feel free to go and give it a thumbs up if you like it and subscribe for more videos! I hope you all like it and film a video just like this. 
xo,
embur.

BYE, BYE Dr. Pepper!

March 5, 2014

So today is Ash Wednesday (aka the first day of lent), and like every year, I give up the love of my life, Sir Dr. Pepper. 

For those of you that don't know what lent is:
Lent: The period preceding Easter that in the Christian Church is devoted to fasting, abstinence, and penitence in commemoration of Christ's fasting in the wilderness. In the Western Church it runs from Ash Wednesday to Holy Saturday and so includes forty weekdays.
For the past four years, I have given up Dr. Pepper, which is like death to me because Dr. Pepper is a drug to me. However, this short cleanse is great for my body. Caffeine is actually a drug, so for the first few days, I have my withdrawals. The most I suffer is some headaches– which is something I'm unfortunately used to since I have chronic migraines. 

Although I am a Christian and lent is something I think I should do to honor Christ, one of the top reasons I do this is because it's a motivator for me to give up something toxic in my life. Every year I tell myself, after lent is over, I am going to cut back on Dr. Pepper all together. That I'm not just giving it up for lent, but for the whole year. That never works. Maybe it will this year. I hope. I just need to remind myself to drink more water, cut back on the sweet tea, and have some healthy snacks every once in the while. Eat some grapes instead of zebra cakes. The broke college student dilemma. 

Since I don't drink coffee, I rely on soda to provide me with my daily dose of caffeine and wake me up. I guess now, I will have to rely on hot chocolate. I really wish I enjoyed those Naked juices or smoothies, but I am the biggest picky eater ever. I told myself that in 2014 I would try more food and be more adventurous with my food palette, but alas, that has not happened yet. Maybe lent this year will be the motivation that I need!

Wish me luck!

xo,
embur.